Is It Embarrassing to Chase a Dream When Nothing Is Happening?

I am officially on month three of the road to NYFW. There is a well-known statistic in the world of fitness and goal-setting that the third month is exactly when most people quit. To be completely honest, my inbox is very much empty and my follower count some days falls rather than climbs.

It is funny that the theme for my “Scripture & Seat” series this year is endurance. I decided to announce this crazy dream of making it to NYFW so many months in advance, and right now, nothing seems to be moving. The most pressing issue before me is raising and saving the money for the trip as a “nobody.” I am a humble fitness director and a leader in women’s ministry. Most of my work does not bring in the big dollar bills. However, I have seen the Lord creatively bring people to me with ideas for side hustles. I have been playing around with the idea of selling ebooks through Canva based on my experience in corrective exercise and fitness.

I am also not too proud to ask for donations as I get closer to the date. I have had friends at church ask how they can donate. It seems wild, but you never realize how eager people are to bless someone who is authentically pursuing a dream. I feel like Oliver Twist when he says “please sir can I have some more?” LOL

The Reality of the Wait

The endurance required to keep posting about this dream can feel embarrassing when you look at where I currently stand. Most people stop here because they are afraid of looking foolish, but I just keep reminding myself of my motive. I am a prodigal daughter who was radically redeemed by a Father who cares about modesty and Jesus being represented in a secular field.

Fashion and NYFW do not usually scream “I love Jesus,” but I do. This journey is also about finding rest and enjoyment for myself. I serve and work a ton. Whether I make it to any shows or not, I know this is a vacation I will enjoy even if I “fail”. I am challenging myself to travel as a single lady and not wait for a man to enjoy my life. GO CASS! 

Getting the chance to be a light in the darkness is exactly the type of glory I am excited to bring to God.

I am most excited for the creativity that comes right before the trip. I get to plan my outfits, design one specific look, record content, and map out shopping/food spots. Being creative is when I feel my best!

A God Who Cares About the Small Things

I want to be authentic with you all. Most weeks are slow, boring, and it feels like nothing is happening. But I serve a God who cares about the things I care about. He is the one who makes me lay down in green pastures and rest with Him.

I know the “God winks” will continue. Months down the road, I will look back at this blog and giggle because I will see that He cared all along. He is present now and He is present then, even now (omnipresence is a crazy theological attribute of God I love to get lost in thought about). He cares about my rest, my heart, and my creativity. Most of all, He gets all the glory for every bit of fun and joy that comes from this trip.

Love yall, and thanks for always joining me on these blogs!